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Choose Your Battles

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Choose Your Battles

My beautiful son just got a huge tattoo. He loves it. I hate it. When I look at it I remember when he was prematurely born and struggled to survive. I remember that for months the monitors attached to his tiny body would go off alarming us to thump his foot and startle him into breathing again. I remember covering him in prayers for health and strength. I reminisce over the toddler with blonde bangs and a big smile whose happiest place was in my lap. I ache for the simpler, sweet days of chicken nuggets, mac’n’cheese and rescue heroes. I’d love to revisit the times when I was the one who could soothe the pain of a busted-up knee or broken heart. I loved the bedtime agenda of 2 songs, 1 story and family prayer time. I miss squealing with him while watching “Fear Factor” and water balloon fights and “Happy Grams” and his elastic waist corduroys, and his comic strip bible and bed hair and the dirt +feet+ fresh cut grass rank smell of football carpool. So many sweet memories have faded and I feel like this mammoth tattoo mocks me with the harsh reality that I am the mother of a grown man.

As I lamented the reality of the tattoo, someone tried to encourage me with the phrase “Well, you have to choose your battles”, and though this is true, it is also true that when we choose not to engage in battle, there is still loss.

I could have stopped my son from getting a tattoo. I could have taken away his car, grounded him and made all kinds of threats. If I was stubborn enough and willing to put the preservation of his skin over his need to express himself, I could have. I know how to win and I certainly could have won this battle. Maybe I should have chosen to fight, but this time I didn’t. My home is relatively peaceful. I didn’t waste energy on threats or rage. He is happy with the ink and appreciative of my allowance…. Battle over beautiful skin-not chosen.

I need to be encouraged. I wish I had confidence that by not engaging in battle, I did the right thing. It’s done now and it’s permanent, and so if I was a terrible mother by being permissive, well crap! It’s certainly not the first time I’ve messed up this mom assignment. I want to get it right. I want to be the proverbs 31 woman and the mom who is cherished and adored. I want to always be kind and do justice and love mercy and walk humbly and fight the right battles. I want my kids to make good decisions without my threats or praises as their motivator. I want the Holy Spirit to move through my family so we are all hungry for God’s word and for harmony in our home.

As I want and as I pray and as I keep trying, here is the encouragement I have found:

It is helpful when we find ourselves in battle to rely on God’s track record. He fights for us. He says, “I choose you.” When we are weak, He is strong. There is nothing that I want more than for my children to love Jesus even more than I do, and the battle for their souls is His. “He is a strength to the poor, a strength to the needy in distress, a refuge from the storm, a shade from the heat.” (Isaiah 25:4). When I fail as I often do, God is there to lift me up- “Let us fall into the hand of the Lord, for His mercies are great.” (2 Samuel 24:14). I will never be totally at peace here, because this is not my forever home (1 Peter 2:11), but thankfully, my time here is brief compared to eternity in heaven (James 4:14) and when my time here is done, I will see the King in His beauty (Isaiah 33:17) I will see Him as He is (1 John 3:2) In my flesh I shall see God (Job 19:26) and I will be satisfied (Psalm 17:15).

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A Script for Miracles

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“Bess, I’m going to hang up the phone and your dad and I are going to pray.”

It was all we could do and the first thing we should always do. This past weekend our daughter was 4,500 miles away in Amsterdam and locked out and alone on the street at 3:00 in the morning. She had gotten separated from her friends and abandoned by her roommate who had the key to their rented room. Her texts were laced with panic and as her phone battery bled out to 1% worth of power, isolation and fear overwhelmed her.

Pat and I were comfortably settled in our den watching the Alabama game with the other 3 kids accounted for and our 2 golden retrievers settled at our feet, but we felt equally as afraid and insecure. Our baby was alone and unsafe.

We held hands and prayed. We prayed lots of specific prayers for Bess and the roommate, but the deepest cry from our hearts was that God would protect Bess and get her to safety.

Over the next hour, I tracked her phone about every 5 minutes, knowing that if it began to charge, she had gotten inside and was safe. When her phone finally registered a charge, I texted her and held my breath as those beautiful 3 dots paced themselves on my screen. Bess texted that a woman who lived nearby had heard her crying and invited her in. She offered her tea, listened to her saga, charged her phone and gave her a place to sleep. Bess felt safe and relieved, but I was still spinning. It took me a little more time to trust this kind stranger and to trust that my daughter was safe.

God had answered our prayers expediently, lovingly and thoroughly, but He did it in a way that I hadn’t expected or scripted and I was a little slow to thank Him. He always knows exactly what we need, but for some bizarre reason, I usually think I know better. I tend to think that I know exactly what I need and what my kids and church and community and country need. I have a plan for how and when all these things should happen and I am happy to tell God about it and ask for His help. I have a serious ego problem.

God doesn’t need my help or direction. He is so patient with me and so generous to keep showing me His sovereignty and love. He keeps showing me this in His word. The very first miracle Jesus preformed was when he turned the water into wine at the wedding feast in Cana. His mother, Mary recognized that the wine had run out and she was concerned for the wedding host. She knew Jesus could fix the problem and so she presented the problem to Jesus. Mary didn’t tell Jesus what to do or how to fix the problem. She just brought the problem before him and asked him to fix it. She trusted Jesus and Jesus preformed a miracle.

Every day that you and I wake up, we will be faced with problems. We will have monumental tasks, deadlines to meet and mountains to climb. As parents, we will cling and release, prepare and pray. When we pray, please remember that Our Heavenly Father cares so deeply about all of our problems. Go to Him first and go with a trusting heart. He does not need us to write the script for Him. He is present and working miracles in our homes and across oceans. Your problems are no match for our mighty God. All praise and glory be to Him alone. Hallelujah!

“ When the wine ran out, the mother of Jesus said to him, “They have no wine.” John 2:3 (ESV)

 “By this we shall know that we are of the truth and reassure our heart before him; 20 for whenever our heart condemns us, God is greater than our heart, and he knows everything.” 1 John 3:19-20 (ESV)

 

“Your Father knows what you need before you ask him.” Matthew 6:8 (ESV)

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Smile

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Before everyone donned their Elsa, Storm Trooper and Joe Dirt costumes on Saturday, these 3 Nelsons put on a different kind of mask. The 3 people you see in this picture have really fake smiles painted on. This picture was taken 10 minutes after a heart-breaking loss to a big rival. The visiting team was still on the field celebrating and their band was rockin. Pat and I had our arms around a soaking wet and very smelly lineman, who couldn’t wait to get off campus, but we had one tiny obligation to complete and all it required was to stand there and smile.

Life is full of situations and circumstances where we have to just grin and bear it. We fake it for a lot of reasons, but one very important reason we do, is because we care about others more than ourselves. Everyone has stuff. We have all been wide-awake in the middle of the night consumed with anxious thoughts and worries. We have aching bones and aching hearts, but we don’t talk about those at football games, in the grocery store or the hallway at church. It is certainly more palatable and socially appropriate to avoid the “Debbie Downer” syndrome, but our goal should not be fixed on social appropriateness.

As Christians, our mission and hope is to be conformed to Christ and to love like He loves. Jesus was not a “Debbie Downer”. You will not find a passage in the Bible where when asked about His day, Jesus replies, “ Well, my feet are so dirty and I haven’t been sleeping. I am constantly being followed around by hundreds of people who want something from me. The 12 who are with me the most keep missing the point and I have to explain things over and over again to them. One of my closest friends is about to tell people that he doesn’t even know me, and to top it off, people I love and have given everything for are plotting to kill me.” Jesus was entitled to everything, but He lived to love others and to put the needs of others before His own. He listened and He didn’t have to fake a smile or compassion or joy, because His focus was His mission.

We also have a mission. We were created to glorify God and enjoy Him forever. We do that by making sure our priorities are in order. We put Him first and others second and then we focus on self. When these are our priorities and mission, fake smiles are less often required.

Not everything is rosy and sometimes the spotlight is shining on you. When things are rough and at their darkest, you are not alone. You have divine help to show you the light. God in His compassion and wisdom is present to remind you of all your reasons to rejoice. The smiles on this picture were fake, but if I had been clearer of thought and perspective, my smile could have been genuine and sincere. There are 100’s of beautiful things going on in this picture. That is my son and he’s the only one I have. He is being embraced by parents who adore him and each other. He is playing football for the first time in high school and he is exceling. He is happy and respectful and brings us such joy. We have every reason to rejoice and you do too. You are blessed and you have been given a new day to rejoice in your blessings and to bless others. It is time to smile.

“Do nothing from selfish ambition or conceit, but in humility count others more significant than yourselves.” Philippians 2:3 (ESV)

“Consider him who endured from sinners such hostility against himself, so that you may not grow weary or fainthearted.” Hebrews 12:3 (ESV)

“Let us also lay aside every weight, and sin which clings so closely, and let us run with endurance the race that is set before us, looking to Jesus, the founder and perfecter of our faith, who for the joy that was set before him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is seated at the right hand of the throne of God.” Hebrews 12:1-2 (ESV)

“Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things.” Philippians 4:8 (ESV)

 

 

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Progressive Taxi

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Pat and I are in the process of getting our Pilot’s license. This adventure has been daunting. Every week, I am memorizing charts and formulas, symbols and equations. Everyone keeps comparing it to learning a new language, but it sometimes it feels like learning a new language with a gun pointed at you, because if you don’t master it all, you could die. I have had moments of fun, but overall, I am nervous, insecure and overwhelmed.

While studying airport diagrams and maps last week, I was introduced to the term, “Progressive Taxi”. When a pilot needs to get her airplane from the ramp to the runway, she calls the tower, identifies herself and her location and then tells the tower where she wants to go. The tower will reply with a series of directions that will help her get to the desired runway. The directions will sound something like this: “Diamond Eclipse Foxtrot Charlie, exit the ramp via Golf. Right on Echo, Right on Bravo, left on Charlie. Hold Short at the ILS line. Proceed on Charlie, Left on Foxtrot. Hold Short runway 22 N/E.” The pilot writes everything down, repeats it and follows the directions exactly. If she makes a mistake, she can endanger herself and any other plane at the airport. She has all the information she needs to arrive safely, but it is a lot of information. It is easy to miss a turn or to get into a confusing situation. As insecure as I am in my aeronautic abilities, the imperativeness of perfection in taxing an airplane made my chest tighten, and then I read about Progressive Taxi.

If a student pilot or insecure pilot at a busy airport feels she needs extra help, she can ask for Progressive Taxi. The tower will respond by walking her through every turn and step in real time. The tower will watch her leave the ramp and alert her that a right turn on Golf is 100 yards away. The tower will help her with every turn and stop until she gets to her desired runway. The tower is everyone’s helper and gives all the information out to every pilot, but the pilot that asks for extra help and guidance gets the comforting lead in a confusing and complex situation.

I have been a Christian and student of the Bible for decades. I have all the information and equipment I need to live like Jesus and grow in wisdom and grace, but DANG if this world isn’t a totally confusing place. Life keeps throwing sharp turns and heart wrenching situations at me. Parenting is much harder and more anxiety ridden than piloting. Relationships and loving others can be a daily challenge. Every day, selfishness and pride and other embarrassing inclinations to sin distract me. I can get lost, make wrong turns and quickly get myself into trouble.

My ability to remember all the truths I have claimed in scripture gets cloudy when I spend any significant time out of the word. I forget what I have meditated on when life comes at me with challenges. I’m completely equipped, but I’m feebly forgetful.

The beautiful truth is that God knows all this about me and He never fails to lead or direct when I ask for help. He is aware of my frailty and forgetfulness. He sees all the complexity and confusion of my life and journey and it doesn’t throw Him for a second. When our current situation is one that riddles us with fear and insecurity, we need to ask for the extra help. When we don’t know which way to turn, we must turn our eyes and ears upon Jesus and stay tethered to His truth and direction. He will gently lead us every step of the way. He holds our hand through every turn and only asks us to navigate the turn immediately before us. He will direct, guide, lead and encourage until we get home.

Precious friends, call out for His help in every turn, and every step along the way. He is the tender shepherd who brings home the lost sheep. Follow His lead.

“And I am sure of this, that he who began a good work in you will bring it to completion at the day of Jesus Christ.” Philippians 1:6 (ESV)

“To him the gatekeeper opens. The sheep hear his voice, and he calls his own sheep by name and leads them out.” John 10:3 (ESV)

“Ask, and it will be given to you; seek, and you will find; knock, and it will be opened to you. For everyone who asks receives, and the one who seeks finds, and to the one who knocks it will be opened. Or which one of you, if his son asks him for bread, will give him a stone? 10 Or if he asks for a fish, will give him a serpent? 11 If you then, who are evil, know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your Father who is in heaven give good things to those who ask him!” Matthew 7:7-11 (ESV)

 

 

 

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Busted Beams and Shattered Windows

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I woke up today in a beautiful home on the Costal Carolina beach. The wind is whipping and as it howls across the inlet, I can only imagine what a hurricane would be like here. This home has the thickest doors I have ever seen. They are as thick as my index finger is long. The house is elevated and equipped with hurricane shutters. There is a clearly defined emergency plan for when a storm hits.

I have been living in a storm that has battered me with hurricane strength winds recently. I have suffered some “busted beams” and “shattered windows”, and as the wind continues to howl around me, I have learned a lot.

I know that I get off track and often find my strength and value in relationships. Everything feels sunny and 75 when the relationships with my family and friends are healthy and whole, but when there is friction or fissures, my knees get weak and posture crumbles.

Relationships shift and building your hope on them leads to instability. Building your hope on health or wealth or kids or adventure, success or achievement is precarious too. Our only sure foundation is to build our hope on Jesus Christ and His righteousness.

“Therefore whoever hears these sayings of Mine, and does them, I will liken him to a wise man who built his house on the rock: 25 and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it did not fall, for it was founded on the rock.

26 “But everyone who hears these sayings of Mine, and does not do them, will be like a foolish man who built his house on the sand: 27 and the rain descended, the floods came, and the winds blew and beat on that house; and it fell. And great was its fall.” Matthew 7:24-27 (NKJV)

I needed to read and learn from these verses today. If I build my house or hope on anything other than the ROCK, I will crumble. The verse doesn’t say that my boards won’t buckle. It takes into account that some of my windows might get shattered. Storms rage and they leave destruction in their wake, but when the storm passes, the house with the firm foundation is still standing. I hope you will claim that with me.

To remain upright, we must build our house on the rock, but when we know the storm is coming, we also should use every resource to prepare for the monsoon. In stormy season, we need our emergency kits. We need a plan and sometimes we need to board up our windows. There is great wisdom in filling up our “gas tank”. Mine needs to be filled with scripture and hymns. I have my fire and rescue team of prayer warriors and I have had to lock the doors to some harmful and unnecessary things until the stormy season is over. God’s will for my life is not health and happiness and sunny and 75 degree-days. He is so good and He may bless me with all of those things in due season. His will for my life is my sanctification and sometimes He uses storms to sanctify. All Praise and glory belong to Him. He will hold me up. He alone will keep me from crumbling. He is my rock and my foundation.

 “For this is the will of God, your sanctification” 1 Thessalonians 4:3 (NKJV)

 

“Bow down Your ear, O Lord, hear me;

For I am poor and needy.

Preserve my life, for I am holy;

You are my God;

Save Your servant who trusts in You!

Be merciful to me, O Lord,

For I cry to You all day long.

Rejoice the soul of Your servant,

For to You, O Lord, I lift up my soul.

For You, Lord, are good, and ready to forgive,

And abundant in mercy to all those who call upon You.

Give ear, O Lord, to my prayer;

And attend to the voice of my supplications.

In the day of my trouble I will call upon You,

For You will answer me.” Psalm 86:1-7 (NKJV)

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Soul Cancer

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Today, I have found myself in a state of insecurity. I have been suffering through a season of conflict and frustration that has been going on for a few years. The build up to this turbulent time has taken decades and as the friction gained momentum, my hope and resolve have diminished. There have been ebbs and flows as far as the intensity and heartache go, but never resolution. This trial has intensified again and as I buckle up and prepare for another week, I’m angry and anxious. I have fervently prayed for something that I feel so sure must be God’s will. I have watched God answer the prayers of so many others and then watched Christian friends swoon with praises of thanksgiving to these answered prayers… But God has said “No” to mine. I really don’t get it. My prayer is unselfish and kingdom-minded. It considers the well being of others and it is full of humility and hope. Without a doubt, I would gain by a “yes” answer, but so would many others. In the period of time that I have been praying and suffering and growing through this trail, the situation has gotten worse than I could have imagined possible. I’m scared of what will happen next. The only solution to the problem will have to be divine intervention. I’m stuck and immobile and without ability or opportunity to help. By saying “no” to me and “yes” to others around me, I feel like God doesn’t care. I know that’s crazy and completely out of bounds for a Christian to say, but I just feel so abandoned by the Lord. His refusal to help translates, as “Your prayers and pain are not important to me.” I don’t want to pray about it anymore, and for the first time in my Christian life, I don’t really trust God. I trust He is powerful enough to help. I trust that He is always good, but I don’t completely trust that He loves me. I know He cannot tell a lie, and I know that He says that He loves me. I know that He died for me, but He feels so far away right now and He feels impersonal. I’m writing this today to remind myself of the truth while hoping to encourage those of you who need a douse of the truth too.

We live in a society where people don’t talk about their pain. It’s okay to ask for prayers when people are sick or traveling, but when people are dealing with shame or sin or fractured relationships, we shut up and keep it hidden. We certainly don’t express mistrust in God or the pain of feeling abandoned by Him. As alone as I feel in my spiritual sinkhole, common sense tells me that there must be others suffering an intensely emotional or spiritual soul cancer too. Mine has made me feel unworthy and stupid and the only answer that I can tell is to saturate this heartache with scripture. My emotions and situation are temporary….even though they feel eternal right now. I can’t see the light at the end of the tunnel, but I can and will have to determinedly look for the Light of the World and His eternal truth.

“My God, my God, why have you abandoned me?

Why are you so far away when I groan for help? 

Every day I call to you, my God, but you do not answer.

Every night I lift my voice, but I find no relief.

Yet you are holy,

enthroned on the praises of Israel.

Our ancestors trusted in you,

and you rescued them

They cried out to you and were saved.

They trusted in you and were never disgraced. Yet you brought me safely from my mother’s womb

and led me to trust you at my mother’s breast.

I was thrust into your arms at my birth.

You have been my God from the moment I was born.

Do not stay so far from me,

for trouble is near,

and no one else can help me.” Ps 22:1-5,10,11 (NLT)

 

“Jesus Wept” John 11:35 (NLT)

“Surely He has borne our griefs

And carried our sorrows;” Isaiah 53:4a (NKJV)

 

 “Casting all your care upon Him, for He cares for you.”

1 Peter 5:7 (NKJV)

“For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, is working for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory,” 2 Corinthians 4:17 (NKJV)

“ I will not leave you orphans; I will come to you.” John 14:18 (NKJV)

“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for My strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. 10 Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in needs, in persecutions, in distresses, for Christ’s sake. For when I am weak, then I am strong.” 2 Corinthians 12:9-10 (NKJV)

 

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Cloud Cover

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Last night our Nelson crew ventured outside with high expectations of seeing the Blood Moon and eclipse, but our hopes were dashed by cloud cover. My husband opened his “SkyView” app and with his phone pointed toward the sky, he was able to show us exactly where the moon was hiding. If we squinted and stretched our imaginations, we believed that we could see a dim pinkish glow in that spot, but we never saw the glory of the Blood Moon.

I have seen pictures that my friends living in the west and northeast were able to capture and I have seen some amazing pictures on TV, so I know it was indeed spectacular, but Memphis was blanketed by conditions that kept us from experiencing the joy of the moon-watching party.

This morning as I opened my daily devotional, these were the verses waiting for me to meditate on:

“The heavens proclaim the glory of God.

The skies display his craftsmanship.” Psalm 19:1 (NLT)

“For ever since the world was created, people have seen the earth and sky. Through everything God made, they can clearly see his invisible qualities—his eternal power and divine nature. So they have no excuse for not knowing God.” Romans 1:20 (NLT)

“When I look at the night sky and see the work of your fingers—

The moon and the stars you set in place—

What are mere mortals that you should think about them?

Human beings that you should care for them.” “Psalm 8:3-4 (NLT)

 

God’s glory is all around us and as people created in the image of God, we were designed to glorify Him and give Him praise, but so often we fail to do so. We let the clouds of selfish ambition, busyness and insecurity obscure our vision. We take our eyes off of God’s glory, because we are so obsessed with ourselves.

Many times we are so burdened by the heavy weight of trials that we just don’t feel like offering the God of Glory our sacrifice of praise. We stay inside under the roof of heartaches and physical aches and don’t even make the attempt to see the spectacular glory. We are clouded by weariness and make attempts to self-soothe with artificial light sources.

No matter what our schedule or trial or physical state, our calling remains the same. We are to get up and offer praise to the God of Glory. He made this day, and whether your day is sunny or cloudy, your call is to rejoice in it.

God’s glory is spectacular and it doesn’t change. It may be hard to see because of our circumstances, but just like that blood moon last night His Glory hovers over us.

If I had been able to climb above the cloud cover, I would have seen the moon. I know it was there. I have seen it before and I also can see from the joy of others’ testimonies that it was incredible.

Dear friends, if you are having trouble seeing God’s glory, open the word. Trust the testimonies of the saints before you who witnessed it first hand. Trust in God’s truth that He is the God of glory. He displays His glory for His name’s sake… not yours. It is His name and reputation on the line. He never fails. Look up. Praise Him under the cloud cover. He melts the clouds of sin and sadness and drives the dark of doubt away. Let Him fill you will his spectacular light.

 

“Joyful, joyful, we adore Thee, God of glory, Lord of love;

Hearts unfold like flowers before Thee, opening to the sun above.

Melt the clouds of sin and sadness; drive the dark of doubt away;

Giver of immortal gladness, fill us with the light of day!”

Henry Van Dyke 1907

 

 

 

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Bent Fingers

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At 14, Mary Moore has developed a new condition that contributes to her uniqueness. Over the last few months, her pinkie fingers have begun to curl into hooks. She cannot straighten out her fingers, and thankfully she isn’t in any pain. Yesterday, she was diagnosed with a genetic disorder called “Campodactyly”. Her condition cannot be fixed and will not fix itself. Our little Russian nugget will just have to learn to live with bent fingers.

Before she could begin to generate tears or a reason to pout, her sister and I encouraged her by reminding her of our own “bent fingers” At 6’1”, her 15 year old sister finds that she stands out a lot and there is absolutely nothing she can do about it. I cannot walk in a straight line. I have permanent scars on the inside of each ankle from the constant heel strike my ankles receive any time I walk. As much as I’d like to be able to walk in a straight line, I cannot.

Everyone has “bent fingers”, but so often, we grieve or pout over our condition. We look at all the “straight finger” people and wish that we were just like them. Our bent fingers come in the form of disease, social status, appearance, family dysfunction, health limitations, economic limitations, brain limitations and more, and very rarely do we offer up praise and thanksgiving to God for blessing us with these qualities that make us uniquely us.

Our bent fingers are blessings. Our Heavenly Father created us the way we are for His glory. He is the most wise and most loving and no matter how bent your finger is He did not make a mistake in giving it to you. Instead of trying to hide it or fix it, celebrate it. You are unique. God’s thoughts toward you are more numerous than each grain of sand on the seashore. He sees every part of you and He knows that you are just a little sheep. He remembers that you are dust and every single thought He thinks about you is a precious and perfect thought. His thoughts toward you are based on an honest evaluation of who you really are. If He thinks you are precious, who are you to doubt any precious part of yourself? Give thanks to the Lord who is good and always gives good gifts. Thank Him for your bent fingers.

 

“ Instead, God chose things the world considers foolish in order to shame those who think they are wise. And he chose things that are powerless to shame those who are powerful.” 1 Corinthians 1:27 (NLT)

 

“You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body

and knit me together in my mother’s womb.

Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex!

Your workmanship is marvelous—how well I know it.

You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion,

as I was woven together in the dark of the womb.

You saw me before I was born.

Every day of my life was recorded in your book.

Every moment was laid out

before a single day had passed. How precious are your thoughts about me,[b] O God.

They cannot be numbered!

I can’t even count them;

they outnumber the grains of sand!

And when I wake up,

you are still with me!” Psalm 139:13-18 (NLT)

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Witnesses to God’s Glory

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Hello September! I am certainly glad you are here. You have made a delightful entrance in Memphis. This first week in September, I was given the opportunity to drive around my mom’s VW convertible for the week. One starry night as I drove home from another ball game with a tired and defeated teenager in the passenger seat, I watched a supersonic mood switch transpire as we drove top-down on Walnut Grove. The surly, frustrated kiddo who was complaining over bad calls and sore muscles couldn’t help but relax as the summer air and wind messed up our hair and wafted over our faces. She laughed at me (not with me) as I sang at the top of my lungs in full view of other cars and people. The joy I had was contagious. I was captivated by the sensory overload. My eyes were open to the beauty of the bright stars and low-hanging moon. The giggle bubbles in my chest made my breathing fuller and my body more alive. I loved the sensations of heat and wind and good music and the sweetness of 15 minutes alone with a daughter that needs and loves me, and I couldn’t help but offer up my praise and thanksgiving to the One who created all of it.

As I grow up and grow in the Lord, I am growing in Thanksgiving. When we open our eyes, we are so very blessed to be Witnesses to God’s glory. It is all around us. Creation is all about the business of glorifying the Lord, and when we slow down or just open our eyes a little wider, we experience fullness.

“Did I not say unto you that if you would believe, you would see the glory of God?” John 11:40 (NKJV)

This morning, I read this gentle correction that Jesus gave to Martha after He raised her brother, Lazarus, from the dead. Martha was the busy sister who bopped around from chore to chore. She seemed to always be rushing and always riddled with anxiety. The things Martha busied herself with were good things, but in her agenda-driven life, she lost the joy that comes from living a faith-driven life.

Jesus’s words to Martha in John 11 are just as loving and correcting and inspiring for you and for me today.

“Did I not say unto you that if you would believe, you would see the glory of God?” John 11:40 (NKJV)

I was a child when I put my faith in Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior. I BELIEVED that Jesus was the Son of God and that I was a sinner. I BELIEVED that the only way my sins could be forgiven was if Jesus died for my sins and paid my penalty. I gave my life to Him and He took my heart of stone and gave me a new heart of flesh. Because I believed, I was guaranteed to one day be received into GLORY. Heaven is my inheritance and future because I BELIEVE in Jesus.

As I have grown in The Lord and in my love for Him, I live a life based on trust and faith and belief. I need the nourishment of His word. He fills me with the food of His truth. I trust Him with my kids and my marriage and the details of my life, and as I pray and release my agenda into His capable hands, I watch His GLORY unfold. I BELIEVE in His Sovereignty over everything and this BELIEF makes rejoicing in everything possible. I even was able to thank Him this morning for shaping me through a painful, lingering trial. I can see His GLORY in it and I am so thankful. Because He has opened my eyes to His Kingship and the beauty of His creation, I am seeing the GLORY OF GOD in sunrises, sunsets, surly teenagers, evening carpools college admissions, sleepless nights, silly dogs, new hobbies and so much more. When we trust and BELIEVE in Him in the day to day, we see His GLORY.

The most exciting application of this verse is all about the future GLORY! Because I BELIEVE in Jesus and have given my life to Him, when I die, I am promised to see Him in His full GLORY. I will see him face to face and be fully embraced. I really can’t imagine!!! The bubbles of joy in my chest will surely explode. The sight and sound and feel will be beyond what I am even capable of hoping for, and it is guaranteed, because I BELIEVE.

Oh dear friends, if we BELIEVE, we will see His GLORY. Thank Him for this guarantee over all our yesterdays, todays, tomorrows and for eternity.

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It’s only Tuesday

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It’s only Tuesday and the emotional rapids of the week have pitched and plummeted the Nelson family. We have started September with all 4 kids in the house, which is super sweet for this mom. We have celebrated a big win over an archrival in volleyball and whooped over our son’s football highlight films. My husband has had a productive workweek and the youngest got an A on her first high school test. We have also had one kid run a fever, one suffer FOMO, two engage in an infuriating, ridiculous and relentless quibble and a dog that’s battling a stomach bug. Mealtime is supposed to be the sweet, end of the day, highlight for the American family, but when mom spends hours of time, buckets of creativity and a good portion of her budget to put a healthy and delicious meal on the table…. and her kids turn up their noses at anything green… and pick every tomato off their plate… and slide it to the floor so the stomach-sensitive dog can gobble it up, this mom wants to bow out.

I know many of you identify and empathize. Our days are repetitive: Back to work, back to school, more projects, more bills, more homework, more laundry, more ballgames, more tears and interlaced are paychecks and celebrations, triumphs and bouts of unrestrained laughter.

It was a precious comfort this morning to read how wise King Solomon felt exactly the same way. Near the end of his life, and inspired by the eternal Holy Spirit, he filled us in on his pursuit for understanding the meaning of life.

Absorb with me some of his musings from Ecclesiastes 1:

 “Everything is meaningless,” 4 “Generations come and generations go, but the earth never changes. The sun rises and the sun sets, then hurries around to rise again.” 8 “Everything is wearisome beyond description. No matter how much we see, we are never satisfied. No matter how much we hear, we are not content.” 9 “History merely repeats itself. It has all been done before.” 11 “We don’t remember what happened in the past, and in future generations, no one will remember what we are doing now.” 17” So I set out to learn everything from wisdom to madness and folly. But I learned firsthand that pursuing all this is like chasing the wind.”

Solomon was successful and wise. He was a Good King with a great reputation. He had a beautiful home and garden. He made mistakes and had to learn from them. He had kids that reflected well on him and kids that brought shame to his name. Solomon was able to indulge in the pleasures that life affords, and he was also able to find satisfaction in hard work; he realized that all of it is meaningless.

Our lives are just as meaningless. When life is defined by the daily grind and the mountain of laundry is reborn every 3rd day, and the schedule is crammed with 90 minute ball games, and we find happiness in interludes of successes, pleasures and escapes, we are a sad lot.

In His superior wisdom, Solomon concluded that we cannot truly enjoy anything apart from God. It is God who gives wisdom, knowledge and joy. (Ecc 2:25-26) He understood that all the simple pleasures in our wisp of time on earth, and all the roses and thorns and accomplishments, opportunities and major life events are also gifts from an eternal God. Do you, like I do, forget this? I get so entrenched in the temporary that I convince myself that the stuff on my horizontal horizon is the most important. My view is skewed by the temporary. The laundry, and homework and kid-raising and road-paving and people managing stuff is seasonal. There is a time for all of it and in the day it is given, it is to be rejoiced over and determinedly attended to, but we must remember that it is a gift. It has been given for a temporary time from an eternal God. For joy to abound, the eternal must be our goal. After listing all the experiences life has to offer, Solomon shares the secret. He learned that we should accept all that God puts before us as a gift and that the gift deliveries are always perfect in their timing, but if our happiness doesn’t find it’s core in the giver, we will live a desperate and exhausting existence.

Oh dear friends, rejoice! Whatever life throws at you is a seasonal gift. It is fleeting, but the one who gave it is forever. Have a great day!

What do people really get for all their hard work? I have seen the burden God has placed on us all. Yet God has made everything beautiful for its own time. He has planted eternity in the human heart, but even so, people cannot see the whole scope of God’s work from beginning to end. So I concluded there is nothing better than to be happy and enjoy ourselves as long as we can. And people should eat and drink and enjoy the fruits of their labor, for these are gifts from God. And I know that whatever God does is final. Nothing can be added to it or taken from it. God’s purpose is that people should fear Him. What is happening now has happened before, and what will happen in the future has happened before, because God makes the same things happen over and over again.” Ecc 3:9-15 (NLT)